More Of The Same

I wrote about being mislead at the top of the year

Now here I am at the end hurting over the same

He was here

Seemingly perfect

Did all the right things

We had a more than perfect connection

Liked the same things

Would spend days just being together

Sometimes not leaving the house

Just hanging out

Wallowing in eachothers company

He told me he wanted something real
he was tired of relationships that only last a few months
He wanted to know love for real
We talked about everything
Nothing was off limits
We worked through everything
He was so much more than a lover
He was my friend
My right arm
My hip
My Baby
Then
It came
He said he wasn't sure what he wanted
He didn't want to stay around only to hurt me
He needed "time" to get himself "together"
So I fought
Then I kissed him
Told him how much I loved him
and I let him go
How is it fair to go from seeing him everyday
To a text message maybe every other day
How do you just ...
Leave
Like we never were
I miss his presence
His laugh
Watching him watch TV
Being frustrated at his loud snoring
Sleeping in his arms
Or with my face in his back
I miss him so
I miss him as much as I feel abandoned
So what do I do now??